Ketchup

The skinheads were back last weekend. It was Angus's birthday and the sisters were tending bar so we got just drunk enough to be obnoxious. It was messy and delightful. We danced directly in front of the skins. I now know that I do not want to get involved with the one i think is cute. I was told he got Hannah drunk just to bang her, aka not my type. I like to think we hang out with a classier crowd when it comes to that stuff, because within these little subcultures everyone knows everyone. But we are just like everyone else.

It's after 3 on what is now Saturday morning. ordinarily I'd be arriving home from whatever was going on but i have spent the last 24 hours on my parent's couch, continuing to be ill. it's been 4 months and I've had no relief. I'll likely go for another xray next week, this time sinus. i don't want to do a third round of antibiotics. i don't want the plague to claim me when it comes because my body is immune to meds. these are the things that worry me sometimes. but for now I've just found The Wedge which i haven't watched in years and they are playing a Postal Service video and so everything is right with the world. and now, The Bicycles.
"Montreal's appealing but i need the real thing, Paris oh Paris be mine"
catchy, i think I'll look them up. Without my glasses on, one of the guys from Kings Of Leon looks like Teddy Suss.

Why am I inspired to blog now? at 3am, when I'm sick and should be sleeping? I just finished reading the entire blog of an old friend. It read like a book written by/about someone i have never known. someone i was never close to, never had things in common with, never knew. we reside in the same city. we are part of two very different worlds. but she is successful and beautiful and witty and I'm happy and grateful for that. she's never had it easy and she deserves it.

sigur ros's "untitled" is the last thing that needs to come on as i sit here and realize it's April 7th already. it's Matty's birthday and we are currently not really speaking. this video will disturb me to the end of time. i posted it on here about a million years ago. notice how quickly i distract myself with the video rather than think about Matt. i hope we solve things soon. i feel awful for having Christine in the middle.

i just read that Elissa hung out with Mike today and this makes me miss him and feel a little sad. June is too far away. if it even happens.

when i am healthy i will be less of a downer. I'll be back to me.

ninja please!


Current Mood: oh, you know
Current Music: various band on The Wedge